I have been through way too much death over the past decade. Some unavoidable due to illnesses, others unexpected and unexplainable, and several were suicides. Death of any loved one is heartbreaking. Grief is a horrible, often ugly process. We don't just "get over it". We walk through it one breath at a time, one minute at a time, one day at a time.
I am usually not too affected by the death of a far off celebrity, but the death of Robin Williams has really hit me hard. Maybe because the recent death of my would be sister-in-law in January is still fresh on my heart. Also because Robin Williams appeared to be such a beautiful soul. There are many things in life that are unexplainable, his death is one of them.
I watched one of Robin Williams' last movies entitled "The Angriest Man in Brooklyn" today. I had never heard of it until he died. The media reported the movie as a flop. I will admit it wasn't your typical high action, blood, guts and violence that sells these days. It was an actual story about a family going through the grieving of the loss of a loved one. In the movie Williams attempts suicide over it all. This movie spoke to me on so many levels. It was a simple, poignant movie that showed the heart of Robin Williams, a true actor and artist.
I have heard it said by callous, mouthy bystanders at funerals of suicides that the person who took their own life is doomed to rot in hell for eternity. I think not. I believe that the day of our birth and the day of our death is appointed by God. I also believe that if it is not our time, God will not allow us to pass on, even if we try to take our own lives. I'm living proof of that. For those who do commit suicide, I think God allows their suffering to end. I think He sees this world is just too hard for them and He brings them home.
So to Robin Williams, my grandchildren who have gone before me, and the countless other loved ones I've buried, may God bless and keep you with Him forever. Rest in peace and fly high with the Angels. Save me a place till I meet you there some day.